Day one step forward, Day two steps back

Grr.

My alarm went off this morning at 6am.  I was mad that morning came so early and that it was still dark outside and in my house, but I had the reaction to my alarm that I wanted: I got right out of bed, turned off the alarm, took a deep breath, and stretched.  It took all the will power I could muster not to climb back into bed.

I forgot two important details when planning my morning routine that didn't come up in the practice run yesterday.  First, I usually have to use the bathroom first thing when I wake up.  Should have thought of that.  Second, my mom would be proud, I forgot to write in brushing my teeth.  So I amended my routine, went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and came back into my room for the next step.  Working out, though, is I think the very last thing I am excited to do while still half asleep at 6:00 in the morning.  So, instead of putting my work out clothes on and driving to the gym, I climbed back into bed.

I set my phone alarm for 7:30, snoozed it four times, and finally got up at 8.  Maybe I will get it tomorrow.

I was reminding myself this morning that getting back into bed is more than getting back into bed.  It's taking two steps back on my goal setting.  It's making tomorrow even harder.  It's making day 21 further away.  But grumpy just-let-me-sleep Katelyn is much stronger than strong-willed let's-be-a-better-person Katelyn.  Nothing seems to matter more in the morning than staying tucked between my covers for as long as possible.

I am still trying to keep the bigger picture in mind, though.  Starting my day like it means something and not like I just have to get out of bed because another day came sooner than I would have liked gives purpose to each day and ultimately my life.  Like the header says, I want to be intentional about my existence, and I think that includes waking up for the day.  I want to wake up as if I have important things to wake up for.  I want to wake up as if I can't wait for today to start because God has made it and has great plans for me today.  I want to wake up as if I am anticipating so many opportunities.  So I need to remind myself that sleeping in that extra hour or two means missing opportunities, missing out on being a part of something, missing out on a purposeful day.

Hoping tomorrow I will be less willing to trade all that in for a tiny bit more sleep.