Noteworthy

I am at the point in the semester (unfortunately I do reach this point around this time every semester) when it all feels meaningless.  I work hard at school for about a month until the first tests come along and I feel like the things I thought were enough aren't and the things I thought mattered don't and I start to realize that the hard work I was doing wasn't quite cutting it.  I start feeling like the time and stress and effort I put in never matches the grade I get back or the feeling of accomplishment I would like to experience.  The present feels too overwhelming and the future feels too far and there is too much to do in the time that I have outside of class while the time I spend in class seems to get longer with every passing lecture.  With every To Do List crossed off, there is another that has already formed.  With every decision made comes a few more that must be made, not to mention the doubt that shadows each decision and the sometimes changing my mind just to change it right back.

There is too much to do.  So I have to accept that I will never find rest in this life.  Even when I have a productive day, the next day will just bring new tasks.  But if I need peace and rest and serenity, where will I find it?

Somewhere else.

The Lord is my shepherd;
      I have all that I need.
 He lets me rest in green meadows;
      he leads me beside peaceful streams.
 He renews my strength.
 He guides me along right paths,
      bringing honor to his name.


Psalm 23:1-3