To Happen, Rather than be Happened Upon

I have let most of my life happen to me.  I think many of us do this because we don’t realize how much control we actually have over our lives and over what happens around us.  Until now, letting stuff just sort 0f happen has worked alright for me, only because I have been blessed and things have miraculously turned out for the better.  This lifestyle, though, leaves me ordinary.  If I continue letting life happen around me, the blessings I have been given will go to waste.  It is time to take control, to minimize the passive acquisition of external influences, to figure out what I think and how I feel, and to be purposeful and diligent with the resources I have been given.

I chose the graphic of a blank book for this blog because that’s much how I feel.  If each of our lives is a story, I haven’t had much to write down.  Journals and notebooks of mine are mostly filled with quotes rather than my own thoughts.  I have forgotten what a love of learning feels like.  I have avoided formulating strong opinions.  I have been okay with getting by and have excelled only in mediocrity.  I am good at being normal. 

But to normalcy I no longer aspire.  I want to be noteworthy, not because I want to be praised but because I was made for more than mediocrity.  I believe my designer had bigger dreams for me than running out the clock or fearing failure so much that I would trade excellent for average.

I wanted to document this journey because I’m hoping to grow, and I want to track that growth.  I thought a blog would be a good place because a) I would appreciate contribution (since thoughts, opinions, and ideas become significant when they are shared and tested); and b) I desire for others to realize that their designer also has bigger dreams for them.  I would be honored if this eventually became a place to share adventures, tell stories, debate issues, and express ideas. 

Like the header says, my goal is to pursue informed opinions, interesting experiences, and intentional existence.  I want to know where I stand on issues, I want to happen, I want to matter... I want to become noteworthy.